"what do i deserve for this treatment"

let me reply you then... so what do i deserve to be treated like this by you in the 1st place?!

you can always come out with thousand & 1 reason & excuse yet i will have to bear all of them... so what do i get in return??? (piece of shit only)

i really am feeling very tired... with too many of disappointment & my faith is losing... what is there left in you that still can keep me to go on... [nothing]

you know it very well that it takes lot of effort & work to keep up with good relationship with your collg & friends & your customers...don't you know that its take even double of all this just to maintain a relationship???
didn't i have been giving in too much to you... haven that seen to be too little to be notice?
(tears rolling down my cheeks) but i did told you before that to be tgt takes more than just verbal reminding of loving & missing each other...

your constant "reminding" don't work at all when they seems so lifeless to me... they mealy exist & said for the sake of saying...
i have told you that i have really gotten too used to all these... not because i have really gotten used to but simply cause.. i felt total numb to your excuse & reason..
poison of venom are lethal, once gotten too much of poison in oneself... numbness over power everything & whats left with are lifeless awaiting....
its numb in my heart so........ still waiting to test when will the numbness over power my sense...